it's who i am now,

Everyday i wonder when things will get better i was never happy before, and i'm still not happy now, my heart was broken in a million peices, but than he showed me he really loved me again. i do things i would have never done before, just to feel good. i don't believe i'm beautiful, i think i'm a mistake, and i'm a waste of space on this world. i question God everyday, why he made me this way, why he put here, and yet i never get an answer, thats probally because the answer he wants to give i dont want to hear. i like the things i do, they make me have fun and help me relax, but i know they are wrong. but i'm gonna change so some people accept me, i am who i am i'm me and your you, i'm not trying to change you so dont try and change me. i guess you can say i have really changed sence the beginning of summer 09. you may think it for the worst but i believe that deep down its for the best, i dont put up with bullshit anymore, and i dont get hurt as easily. but hey, this is me, i'm sorry if i've hurten you. but thats it.